Friday, January 18, 2013

1/18/13

Cancer watch day: what feels like a million.

I still strongly feel as if I do have Cancer. I just cannot imagine anything but. I really can't, and that scares me. Sometimes I think I am so over exaggerating this that it is just some mass and the lymph tumor will be gone. Yesterday I just kept having a thought of "how could you be so stupid as if to think you would have Cancer". Sometime it feels like I am making it all up and made up the symptoms and am just imagining this whole thing. I just think, you are not showing any other symptoms, you are fine. I think I am a horrible person for thinking I have Cancer when I really don't. Am I making this all up? If I am then why was the doctor so worried? Why would he be concerned over nothing??

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